Getting along during the stress of the morning was a challenge today, I’m not going to lie. It is interesting how, when the body is tired or in pain, the ego-mind sees an opportunity in our weakness to attack others as a means to escape the responsibility we have for our own feelings.
Deep Breath….
Now that I am more centered, I can see how the ego-mind wants me to conform into the anger and frustration that is habit when I am weak and in pain. Although natural to my Spiritual self, choosing Life and Love can be hard work for my human self. But it is that, which I aim for everyday.
I’ve also realized that I depend on you being centered, on you being stable minded, on you being my strength. I’ve depended on you being there for me in “good times and in bad” as the vows state. Yet this notion is really quixotic at its heart. Depending on someone that is also human as myself is unREAListic and foolish. More so that I am a fool for doing so.
Deep Breath….
The human tendency to project what will save them onto others will usually always, if not at first, but later, show itself to be unstable ground or sandy soil that shifts in the wind. This does not make the human a fool–I am far from being a fool–I am magnificent, just like my Creator. This does mean however, that I don’t believe that as true. The connection between the human, the connection between myself and the One that knows my name, is the one True Center which I depend on.
This morning, when my ego-mind said things that my One-mind does not understand. I slipped perhaps into my shadow. A real part of me that needs love. Love, that I have found in relationship with you in the past. My shadow, looking to feel safe turned to the one person that I thought I would always be safe with. Shadows don’t understand that darkness cannot negate dark–only light can do that. Attacks cannot undo evil–only love can do that.
So let me set things straight. Let’s have a refreshing of the morning dew. Hit the reset button.
Deep Breath….
I love you. I honor the space that you dwell. I honor your humanity and respect your shadow. I honor my humanity and respect my shadow. I wrap all in a violet-velvet robe of love and healing, comfort, and adoration from all the hosts and heavenly angels.
Deep Breath….
I love you.
H